Girl Threatens To Sacrifice Her Class to Illuminati?

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Are celebrities really making secret hand signals like covering one eye and getting owl tattoos because of a cult? Are you getting sick of hearing about this illuminati? I am. The latest is a 5th grade girl threatened to sacrifice her class to them....
“I was scared,” Ibarra said. “And I was crying really bad.”

Students said a 5th grade girl started shouting she was part of the Illuminati and threatened to kill other students.

“She said she wanted to sell her soul to the devil,” Ibarra said. “And she said she’ll kill everybody.”

“Everybody just started crying because they were scared that they were going to die that day,” 6th grader Elizabeth Martinez added. Martinez was also in the class and witnessed everything. - ABC News 10
Kids say the Darnest Things right Cosby?

Grossest Things Ever

The grossest thing I've ever seen was a photo of a guy who fell off his motorcycle and lost.... his face. It was on this site called Rotten.com The photo was called Travels with Harley... Thank God I stopped going on there. Oh no I hope I dont now that I thought of it. On you tube there is a video of a woman's husband pulling these slimy, bloody worm things out of her head with tweezers. Shudder. The other grossest video I've seen on You Tube is a woman who was like 800 pounds and her foot literally just broke off one time when she tried to walk. She said she just heard a crunch.... Ohhhhh man
The grossest food facts I've heard is that the FDA allows a certain weight of crushed bugs in peanut butter... Yet I keep eating it.
Vanilla flavoring has beaver anal fluid in it. Like in ice cream truck ice cream. Google it O_o
A womans vagina can literally turn inside out and just dangle.
The grossest thing anyone ever said to me is this 65 year old woman said she would babysit my kids. She said we could go out for dinner or to the movies. She said we could even go upstairs while she watched the kids and have an afternoon delight (she meant sex). I threw up a little.

My Dreams

My dream is to get a book published that has my memoirs, poetry and photos in it. My other dream is to be a public speaker for womens groups and homeless shelters. I have so far spoken at one womens group and one homeless shelter.
Like my poem Epic says, 'I want to touch you right on your soul, create a bond so you'll never let me go.'
I long to connect with people on another level and I think poems can do that like music can.
Off topic, why do artists ignore most of their fans on Twitter? Dont they realize how much their music can mean to a fan. Like three words would make them elated....
Anyways, Im not bitter lol.
My other dream is to get a really nice camera and new laptop and travel around taking mesmerising photos. Then making a nice photo section for my new blog here.

My other dream is to meet my father for the first time. But only if he will love me forever and not lose me again. It would hurt too much to be rejected anymore. I was told he is a big French, Native man. My mothers side originated from England.
I really dont want to get up today... Im going to go to this store called Brands Gone Wild, they have movies for 5.99. They have a copy of My Big Fat Greek Wedding. I want to watch it again because the beginning makes me laugh. They did a second part to that movie called I Hate Valentines Day Im not sure if I want to see. That store also has Matchbox 20's concert dvd called Show. I should pick that up too.
So back ON TOPIC, I would also like to be in a crazy dance flash mob, in a movie (just one indie film) I wouldn't want to be famous (really have you seen how tabloids tear actresses apart?) I just would like to try acting because I love art.
Wanna know a secret? I pretend I am sleeping so my husband will get the boys ready for school...
I cant think of anymore dreams... I try to keep it realastic so this doesnt turn into my Delusions...

Happy Hot Mamas Day!

Well I called both my mothers (natural and adoptive) to say happy mothers day both neither one answered the phone lol. I wonder if that means they are happier pretending they dont have kids. I am having a pretty nice mothers day because I got some chocolates. I love chocolate sooo much. Why are all the good foods fattening? Whos idea was it to make a hamburger have 20g of fat? How does Mc Donalds stuff 12g of fat into a grilled chicken wrap? Anyways happy mothers day!

Weird Thoughts About My Life

What do you do when you feel trapped in your life. Seriously trapped and stressed. If you cant take anymore but you are trapped in a situation. I have nightmares lately of someone being brutally murdered and online sources say that is my brain telling me I cut a relationship or friendship out. But what if its your life thats in danger of being cut out? Not physically but in terms of loosing everything in order to be free again. But what if that could mean your family. This is what it feels like for me. I am a emotionally and verbally abused woman. I have 4 kids though and feel cant manage everything on my own. So I give and give and he takes and takes. Im afraid there is nothing left of me. Plus with my borderline disorder I have a terrible fear of abandonment and panic attacks that could kill a horse. I feel as though I am teetering on the edge and there is no one to rescue me. So I write on my blog to escape. Christians say Jesus will never leave me but I need him to hang out with me and watch movies or play board games. Jesus.... He is all I really have in this world. I wonder what will become of me. I wonder if I will survive this life. I just try to survive day by day, I am in constant desperation for relief.

How Life Really Is

As a kid growing up in the 80's I believed life was this candy coated rainbow world where everyone smiled like on Mr. Rogers. Well guess what...

I like you have mastered this apathetic art of cool
In this media induced frenzy we are all mashed into the same box
Then sealed with government grade glue
Where we tick away like cuckoo clocks and wait for our turn to explode

The Memory Fades

Have you ever almost remebered a memory but it slips away from you before you can grasp it? That happened to me. For a second I remebered something that I used to think of when I was a girl and it felt like the ghost of her passing through me. Like I could feel for a moment how I felt back then. The innocence, the energy.
I felt as though I as grieving myself so I wrote this to try and explain how I felt. Its called Shattered.

The giddy innocence I once had, skips past my shattered reflection in the broken glass.
A ghost of a girl who would laugh and lose herself for hours as time had no grasp.
A fragment of a memory takes me back, a shard of a feeling that I once had.
An excitement that raced, a wonder no one could take.
It was all mine but now it has faded away.
The girls giggles fade into black, she is lost in my abyss there is no coming back.
Is she still really there, is that why I cry?
Or is it just that I couldn't protect her from the pain that would pry. Ripping her in half.
The names that would cut.
The fists that would break, the dissapointments that would cause her heart such crushing pain.
Now here I am, a girl who can survive.
Mourning the sweet girl who in a memory rushed by.